Today was a difficult day mentally.
The last few weeks have left me quiet drained and I haven’t been sleeping well at all. But today I felt really overloaded…
I missed an important telephone interview that was planned today, as I thought it was at different time. And I have never done that before!
It really throw me emotionally off balance and from there, I just spiralled. I then made up a white lie to cover my misunderstanding, but only after a couple of hours later… and by doing so, just left me feeling even worse.
Then there was a work meeting and everyone seemed to keep looking at me for answers.
While a lot of questions were flying around, things normally I should be able to answer (or at least seed ideas in others) – I just couldn’t find a way to answer…
I just kept overthinking my answers in my head (‘can I say this’, or ‘should I say this’) and by the time an answer formed in my mind everyone has moved and asked another question. It just felt like things were piling up. And it felt like I was in quick sand and became very overwhelmed.
As soon as I got home, i needed to do something constructive. So I turned to meditation to help (which I have used sporadically in the past).
I don’t know if it will help but I don’t feel as overwhelmed now, which is an improvement…
